When I was little
I made daddy chase the monsters out from under the bed
And away you went
But you always came back
So I made mommy chase the buggy man out of the closet
And away you went
As I grew you were there
You are nothing but honest with me as you rip off the band aid to reveal my scars
All I do is push you away with every ounce of strength I possess
When you just want to be close enough for a hug
I see you coming from a mile away and I flee with gusto
While others in my life come and go at various rates
For as long as I can remember you have been around
It is ironic that few know me better than you
Yet I prefer anyone's company before your own
You observe with a critical eye that misses not even the smallest of details
While I take no heed of the big picture before me
At three in the morning you wake me from rem just to chat
I dread these early bonding hours but can't seem to say no
You like to hide around corners waiting to jump out in the name of fun
Obliviously I walk by and have the coronary that you intended
But when I ask
You tell me straight
You say to me
I have always been here
I was the monster under your bed
I was the buggy man in the closet
I will always be here to grow and change alongside you
You see me best as your insecurities
I am the one who tells you your darkest doubts
Sometimes I will perch on your shoulder and whisper in your ear
Other times I will grow out of looming shadows to shout at you
If you ask me to go away
I will only come closer
When you need me most you will find me there
But when you need me least I will still be near
If you ask me to show you the way
I will take you by both hands
I promise that when you feel lonely
I will never leave you alone
I will follow you anywhere
I will cross borders and oceans to be with you each day
And when you are looking for me I promise you will never search far
If you need a name to call me by
Please feel free to call me
Your demons.
